Losing the FAITH

Time flies , you have changed . We quarrel but end of the day we will make it back but now ? everything seem like they are not in place. My biggest mistake in life is am always weak in relationship . I give in when things gone wrong , it loses my pride . I hope i can take back all my love for you to save for myself maybe i won't be this hurt now. All i ask from you was your love is it really that difficult ? I have been reminding myself is time to let go , let go of you but, i can't bear too.. All the memories we shared playing like the music box you gave me , it kills me. Anyone out there willing to bring me to a paradise that no hurts no pain exist please ! Although had been through this relationship for a few times but, i just don't learn my lesson why is that so ? This time i thought i found the right one for me but am just naive this ain't a fairytale is a reality world that you gotta face cruel facts that everyone hates. Now inside me my heart are shouting for help but , no one can hear it that's feel terrible. All i wish now was your kisses that calm me down your hugs that warm me up, your hands that give me strength. But i knows it will never going to happen.

Happy 4th Moniversary

Thanks Darling For Your Everything
Darling, i love you for the way you are

Thank you for being with me through all the up and downs
Thank you for all the joys and tears
Thank you for cooking great meals for me
Thank you for massaging my feet when i complain it hurts
Thank you for being an adviser there at all times
Thank you for making all my dreams come true
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THANK YOU FOR LOVING ME
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18/10/10
off today. feeling bored ! don't feel like going out...
looking forward for 26/11/10 i'll be flying off to bangkok the first time taking a flight with Darling.
have been working in Mont Blanc for 6 months so far so good nothing much happen but was absolutely stress was hoping for good sales everyday!
It had been a long time since i gather with my friends
Where are you guys ?
i have quit clubbing&seldom drink too
am so tired i need a holiday to rest.