Losing the FAITH

Time flies , you have changed . We quarrel but end of the day we will make it back but now ? everything seem like they are not in place. My biggest mistake in life is am always weak in relationship . I give in when things gone wrong , it loses my pride . I hope i can take back all my love for you to save for myself maybe i won't be this hurt now. All i ask from you was your love is it really that difficult ? I have been reminding myself is time to let go , let go of you but, i can't bear too.. All the memories we shared playing like the music box you gave me , it kills me. Anyone out there willing to bring me to a paradise that no hurts no pain exist please ! Although had been through this relationship for a few times but, i just don't learn my lesson why is that so ? This time i thought i found the right one for me but am just naive this ain't a fairytale is a reality world that you gotta face cruel facts that everyone hates. Now inside me my heart are shouting for help but , no one can hear it that's feel terrible. All i wish now was your kisses that calm me down your hugs that warm me up, your hands that give me strength. But i knows it will never going to happen.